Fall is in the Air!

As I type this morning the sun is coming in so warm through the window. It makes it feel out here on the porch like autumn is somewhere in the air. This summer has been a transformative summer for sure. With one child beginning 2nd grade and the other kindergarten it is obvious I have had little ones for a while. Coming to terms with the fact we have no babies anymore has been rougher than I thought. But, we must look at the bigger picture.



As Bayne is getting ready to hit the road heavier and heavier we have been talking about how we did this before, 2 years ago still in Montgomery. We talked about how we have always worked together. After getting off the daycare/corporate cubby roller coaster I took one year off to be with Owen. After a year in school again, I began Lulagrace in 2006. The two of us since then have scheduled our lives around being with our boys constantly. Rarely do we have a sitter, but we make it work!



After spending nearly a month trying to determine if at 36 I was going to be diagnosed with breast cancer or not…I processed emotions I had not ever thought I would be able to process. Was I okay with where I was on my walk, was I happy with the time I was spending with my kids, did I feel pulls to change who I was with this new independence all week starting Aug. 9th? I know this sounds dramatic and all, but when the wire Dr. puts his hand on your shoulder on his way out and says "I prayed for you this morning Melissa that this was not cancer" as you head into surgery…it hits heavy!



I think one of the most humble things you can do is take an honest look at yourself. But mostly importantly you must think of others. I am trying to wean myself off of another roller coaster I have created. I feel my own season changing. Realizations of what I enjoyed as a kid and in my adolescence have surfaced lately, I'd like to paint again. All of you know I have been out of the therapy scene for a bit and in need of some horse therapy myself. They keep us pure of spirit! I'm excited to attend my first NARHA conference in just a few weeks. And we certainly enjoy teaching Financial Peace University, but it IS 13 weeks, 26 if we teach it 2x a year!



But I have always been preoccupied with clients, 24/7. Thankful and blessed to have clients! But it takes time from my children, my family, and my household. It has become full time again, quicker than I thought and now with the fast paced world of social media it must be always on. I was thinking how all of my clients through the years have been such a humbling wave in my life. To see folk's experience and process tragedies in their lifetime to toss or keep is exhausting. It takes great focus to steer one back on task after they admit a heartbreaking event. Like Kathie Lee sings…"everyone has a story" Plus I cry too! I get to celebrate their victories with them as well during our time together. Breakthroughs are great no matter how hard it is. In 4 years I've put in some hard days though and am simply worn down and in need of rest.



So, I am going to have to begin looking at my time management systems again. I've hit a hiccup, how to schedule a 40 hour week for myself. With what I normally get done with 15 plus evenings and weekends the possibilities are really endless! I'd have the opportunity to mold and shape it how I wanted 7:30-2:30pm! It's almost too flexible. Throw in a husband who is gone two nights a week allowing time to read quietly and keep house for a few hours? I have to say I have enjoyed not having my laptop in bed with me this week…but I will never give up the TV.



Then there is a little small issue about my own stress and health…I'm on the mend but know that stress equals bad things and I can't have any of it! Tired of swallowing antibiotics, must they be so big? It's like my body is the coast of Africa just hurling things at me like hurricanes to the surface like, see????



I haved lived an odd little life these past few years and met some very interesting people along the way, but feeling my age and my senses and I know change is in the air! As we get ready to prepare our own back to school routine here at the Searcy household...Mom's gonna think about it and get back to you!






posted on: 7/22/2010 2:00:00 PM by Melissa Searcy for http://www.onlineorganizing.com/